Day 4

Well I didn't wake up early to hit the gym.... I forgot breakfast.  I had to run to another town after work. ..and stopped for fast food... I got a subway club and baked chips... I splurged and got some strawberry kiwi tea and it was SO SWEET I didn't have even a quarter of it.

I had  A lot to do today. ..but after I got kids from school I went to the gym. GO ME.

I had a ladies night out... Margarita and a bean tostada dish...and a white russian.

Later a serving of Hershey kisses.

Not horrible.  Not fantastic.  Still no diet coke. Still motivated.

Day 2

Well I didn't wake up and go to the gym... but my inital plan was 3x a week so I still got this. Sadly I'm sore from my 6 mile bike ride yesterday...

I remembered breakfast. Had a healthy lunch and added extra veggies into my dinner. I've had about 30 Oz of water and 30 Oz unsweetened tea.

So far so good. I was very close to buying a diet coke at the store...not even because I wanted one. .. just out of habit. Sad right? 

Well that sucks

Every time I think to blog again....I read the previous and see I am even heavier....and that I was motivated for about a day...maybe two and then motivated me falls off the planet....

So once again I am starting over. Once again I feel fat and ugly and just blah.

I'm starting small. Eat better. smaller portions of the bad stuff. Drink water. Hit up that place called the gym 3x a week.

I wanted to join something online but can't find a place I feel like I fit in...so it's just me on here talking to myself .

The negative today....182.8 good god. I'm going to say 40 pounds down will make me feel good... for now though I'm focused on being out of 180. Baby steps.

The positive today.  I woke early. Worked out 30 min 6 miles on the bike and I've drank well over 64 Oz of water and stayed within my calorie range.

Growing not shrinking!

Ugh. Like at what point to I stop the insanity!?

I'm a little over 180 last I looked. I feel fat. My jeans are almost impossible to zip/button.

What can I do?  Eat less, move more. I know its possible...I've accomplished it before.

Today went okay. Progress. Not perfection.

B: 2 cups coffee with creamer, maple brown sugar oatmeal.
L: 1/4 cup Mac salad 1/4 cup cottage cheese cucumber carrots and tsp sunflower seeds.
S:cherries
D:chicken fried steak, fried potatoes and corn
S:jello with fruit

Best part of my day?!  I Went to THE GYM!  30 min on the bike 160 calories 6 miles.  My heart rate stayed around 130-150